i think you are a loving mom and you should cry and miss your angel. its natural,you carried your baby and felt it grow and move and develope.i lost my grandson 3 weeks ago today to placenta erruption he was born sleeping and we were and still are in grief for him,the brother,son,grandson.nephew,that we will never have.i love and miss him everyday and have since he became an angel and flew to heaven.you are a great mom hang in there and never forget your angel.go to the web address and read about my angel. elsie pate